I have a friend who has kept
my dead beneath his bed
has cleaned the stains of my crimes
has mimicked my voice on calls
my friend has been me
and I have been him
my friend knows what I think
and sometimes that’s why he gets angry
enough, stop doing that!
so I don’t trust people
who I later have to distance myself from
my friend writes to me at any time of the day
wakes me up
asks me if everything went well today and if I could finally sleep
and laughs
my friend has a box of my memories
a bag of my secrets
of my “well, never again”
of my “hopefully this time, yes”
my friend always tells me he doesn’t believe me
and by not believing me
he is my friend
my friend is a good person
loyal
and has a very particular laugh
very contagious in any gathering of friends
and everyone catches it
my friend sings badly
but doesn’t care
one day he will be a pilot
and maybe I’ll find him in Kathmandu or Patagonia
or perhaps playing soccer
with other friends
he tells me to have more fun
to not pay attention
that it doesn’t matter
that nothing really matters
because after all
he also always falls in love
and that’s how it is
my friend sometimes solves the world for me
writes three words
to change my life
he builds alibis
saves me from judgments
he is my judge
and my part
In the past, my friend used to tell me
that not everything was lost
when I was drowning in tears
my friend kills my monsters
revives my plants
he told me that wine stains
come out with mineral water
and that the others
are just a matter of time
my friend looks at me intently
when the needle pierces my veins
and I bleed out
in doubts
and he covers my eyes
when hatred once came
to sit at my table
and dine with me
my friend told me
that one day
we could buy land
in the north
at a dollar per square meter, friend
maybe we should buy it
right now
doing the math
between the two of us
maybe 5000 meters of sand
in front of a beach
build a fence
with everything we have
memories
songs
words
afternoons
dreams
food
smoke
clouds
hopes
and lie on our backs
to watch the sky
together as brothers
waiting
as always
as friendship waits
nothing